CautiousAmber
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Cloud Strife and Mental Illness | A Video Essay
Pretend Australia didn't get copies early because I wrote this script two months ago and intended for this video to go up before the game was released. oPE
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Katsucon 2019 Vlog || Highlights
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Another Katsucon complete!! I'm working on the full vlogs, but until then here's some of the highlights!! Song - Never Fall In Love Again by Desired ☆° cautiousamber °☆ ☆° cautiousamber/ °☆ ☆° cautiousamber °☆
Breaking Dick Grayson... and why it works | A Video Essay
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I'm obsessed with DCU's Titans and the show's approach to Dick Grayson. So I made a video essay breaking down all my thoughts about this version of the character.
2018 || The Best Year of my Life
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A wrap up of 2018! Not kidding, it was the best year of my life. I got to experience so many amazing things and build better relationships with my friends. Thank you so much to everyone that helped make this year so special.
Katsucon Vlog 2018 || Sunday
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aka Megan is the only smart one... Finishing off Katsucon with some Pokemon and one last shoot!! Photo by Ethereous Photography - Ethereous/ ☆° cautiousamber °☆ ☆° cautiousamber/ °☆ ☆° cautiousamber °☆
Katsucon 2018 Vlog || Saturday
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SATURDAY SNOW ・*・°☆。 ・its cold but we're still going out for shoots and I debuted my original FFXII Moogle design !! Day 2 was absolutely exhausting but tons of fun!! Dragon Age photo credit - www.mgnorris.com/ ☆° cautiousamber °☆ ☆° cautiousamber/ °☆ ☆° cautiousamber °☆
Katsucon 2018 Vlog || Friday
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。*:★(´・ω・人・ω・`)。:゜★ Too many photoshoots, not enough coffee, and a surprising amount of Yakuza Friday is always my favorite day of Katsucon and this year was no different!! Nishitani Photoshoot credit - sadboi.photos ☆° cautiousamber °☆ ☆° cautiousamber/ °☆ ☆° cautiousamber °☆
Katsucon 2018 Vlog || Thursday
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IS THAT A PRO GENJI!?! We started off the weekend with some very casual Overwatch cosplays and got settled into our room. Feat. Chipotle and the return of Atrium microwaves~! ☆° cautiousamber °☆ ☆° cautiousamber/ °☆ ☆° cautiousamber °☆
Katsucon 2018 Vlog || Highlights
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I got home 3 hours ago and I miss Katsucon already. o(╥﹏╥)o I couldn't wait to start editing and threw together a video of the very best moments from all of my footage. I'll be posting the full vlogs soons ! ☆° cautiousamber °☆ ☆° cautiousamber/ °☆ ☆° cautiousamber °☆
This Vine Compilation Always Cheers Me Up
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I was feeling down so I put all my favorite vines into a video, enjoy~! ☆° cautiousamber °☆ ☆° cautiousamber/ °☆ ☆° cautiousamber °☆
Cosplay Short: Linkle
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Art Nouveau Legend of Zelda~! This little video shows off a lot of the gorgeous set and lighting we were lucky enough to work with. Film Photos - berrnichole/ Song by Ruth Acuff - ruthacuff.bandcamp.com/ Linkle Design by Drifting by Stars - DriftingByStars/
Katsucon 2017: Friday
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Our Art Nouveau Zelda Group, non-stop screaming about Final Fantasy XV, canned wine aND IT'S ONLY FRIDAY ?!! ☆° cautiousamber/ °☆ ☆° cautiousamber °☆ Art Nouveau Cosplay designs by DriftingByStars

Комментарии

  • @SadCats666
    @SadCats666 29 дней назад

    This was a really good video thank you for this seriously

  • @Omniback20
    @Omniback20 2 месяца назад

    Im also someone who didn't play ff7 until almost 10 years after its release. I definitely agreed the whole mako memory sequence was far more impactful to me then aeriths death

  • @-Down-D-Stairs-
    @-Down-D-Stairs- 2 месяца назад

    Wow such a shame this channel has been dormant just found it after finishing FF7 Rebirth and I really loved the video!!!

  • @underkoverist5254
    @underkoverist5254 2 месяца назад

    great vid im literally cloud strife

  • @OneBoredCatbug
    @OneBoredCatbug 2 месяца назад

    My Sisters were the ones who introduced me to FF7, at that age I never really paid any attention to details or stories in these games, I just saw the design and thought he was so cool so I wanted to be like Cloud. It doesn't really have any meaning, it's not like I could see the future but the turn my life would take in the years after made it so that I was not too far off from Cloud. That's just in terms of mental health though, not personality. How many times have I had an identity crisis? I don't even know the exact number, at least 6 times. I can't talk too much because it's stuff I don't want to go into detail about but there were events that caused me to develop trauma, which may genuinely be PTSD but I haven't had a proper diagnosis, from there I had abandonment and trust issues, developed anxiety and depression. Just recently I was talking to a friend online and something about the conversation must have reminded me of the past, I had a panic attack, never before have I felt so out of control, I was scared to the point that I couldn't trust myself afterwards. Due to my experience with my mental health I did have some control over the panic attack, I didn't let myself say my every thought and while I thought I had ruined another friendship, I looked back and noticed I managed to stop myself from saying anything horrible. It might have been a bit scary for her but my friend stuck with me after, it's changed the atmosphere of these conversations but I'm trying my best to get it back to normal and stop overthinking. I've proven to myself that things can be different from the past, that I can overcome mental turmoil when it counts, hopefully now it should never happen again.

  • @dars5229
    @dars5229 3 месяца назад

    Speaking from experience, I thought the depiction of Cloud's depression in AC was very "realistic" and respectfully done. It's still a cinematic portrayal of depression I relate to most.

    • @wmen48
      @wmen48 2 месяца назад

      That is not the problem. The problem is how Cloud is at the end of og--> it was an 180 of his character.

    • @dars5229
      @dars5229 2 месяца назад

      @@wmen48 I dunno about that. We actually don't get to see a whole lot of the "real" Cloud, when you think about it. From regaining his memories to the final battle isn't a very large chunk of the original story. And we never got to see him between 7's end and the start of AC. That said, I can see why people might find it jarring that the first time they see the hero again after saving the world, he's clinically depressed.

    • @wmen48
      @wmen48 2 месяца назад

      @@dars5229 Clouds whole thing is his plot twist. After that is kill the bad guy so to say.

  • @allysonchen2097
    @allysonchen2097 3 месяца назад

    If you want someone with a mental illness then FEI from Xenogears (which Cloud says in that mako state in tent small clinic, Xenogais). FEI had multiple personalities. Maybe you can do a video on that one if you need another one.

  • @middleofnowhereradio
    @middleofnowhereradio 3 месяца назад

    This is great! Your construction of analyzing the story shows so much confidence in your storytelling, and reflects your true feelings. Brilliant!

  • @nh5264
    @nh5264 3 месяца назад

    Great analysis! Made me rethink some things about his character.

  • @motherwar3698
    @motherwar3698 3 месяца назад

    Whats the name of the song at 9:07? I legit had a "what is that melody" moment

    • @CautiousAmber
      @CautiousAmber 3 месяца назад

      Price of Freedom from Crisis Core!

    • @motherwar3698
      @motherwar3698 3 месяца назад

      @@CautiousAmber thank you! it that was a great video. also as an mcr fan its funny to see these 2 cool things connected xd

  • @CJusticeHappen21
    @CJusticeHappen21 3 месяца назад

    Car Salesman: *slaps Cloud on the shoulder* "This bad boy can fit so much f--king trauma in it." But it should be noted that Clouds personality after he regains his sense of identity isn't who he was as a child or before the Nibelheim massacre. Nor is he who he was at the start of FF7. He's an entirely new person, a synthesis of his identities. He's still kind of a hardass but he's more sensitive and he more earnestly cares about other people. In fact the person he cares the least about it arguably himself, and his own life is the last one he learns to cherish.

    • @wmen48
      @wmen48 2 месяца назад

      When at the end of the game he said - I will see her at the promised land, I got a feeling of hope.

  • @ScorbunGame
    @ScorbunGame 4 месяца назад

    FF7 was incredibly mold breaking for the time, in any other game, hell in any other story, Zack would be the protagonist, he would be the wide eyed idealist who slowly sees Shrina's corruption and eventually takes the entire company down and saves the planet, it would've been the easy way to go. It was a massive gutsy move to make the hero of FF7 someone who's been broken by both Shrina and the world and hide that fact from the player for most of the game.

  • @kara42069
    @kara42069 4 месяца назад

    hes literaly me

  • @cainupsilonch
    @cainupsilonch 4 месяца назад

    Yeah Advent Children Cloud gets a lot of flack but the truth is is that it shows Cloud as a human. Cloud always struggled with feeling like he wasnt strong enough, not strong enough to protect Tifa, his mom, Nibelheim, his best friend Zack, Aerith, etc. Cloud a lot of times had to be saved before he became "1st Class Soldier Cloud". So he felt in his mind that so many people he cared about died for him because he wasnt strong enough and that can eat away at someone, even if those people were to reassure Cloud that that wasnt true, that thought would linger in his mind like a cancer. Add the fact that he also had Geostigma so now he is weakened due to its effects on the body, he's just barely able to stay functioning, so his fear of not being able to protect the people he cares about spikes and his trauma begins creep back in and causes him to sink into a depressed state of mind. During his first couple of fights with Kadaj and his gang, Cloud either got lucky that they left or he got saved by someone else cause the Geostigma was heavily impacting his ability to fight. He doesnt want anyone else he cares about to get involved in his fight because he was afraid that if one of them dies because he wasnt strong enough to save them, he wouldnt be able to handle the guilt of losing a loved one again because of his own weakness. Once Cloud was cured of Geostigma, he was easily able to handle Kadaj and Sephiroth (with a bit of a pep talk from Zack) but it allowed Cloud to realize and prove to himself that he is strong enough to protect what he cherishes and helped him overcome his survivors guilt and that the sacrifices his friends made werent in vain and that he did right by them.

  • @cloudstruck2785
    @cloudstruck2785 4 месяца назад

    It's quite sad that I just came across this video from over 3 years ago, and it's even sadder that in 2024 Cloud is still constantly misunderstood and mischaracterised! I really hope Rebirth makes crystal clear just what a fantastic character and hero Cloud really is instead of people just calling him emo which he never was!!

  • @Marika_ER
    @Marika_ER 5 месяцев назад

    Cloud is real and it's why I love his character

  • @ketzalo7005
    @ketzalo7005 5 месяцев назад

    This video is so great, thank you truthfully for the whole work you put into this, hopefully the rebirth lunch brings back your content!

  • @MortonGoldthwait
    @MortonGoldthwait 6 месяцев назад

    That shift from the Northern Crater to footage of Niblehiem one of the biggest mind f**s in the series. I also love how quiet it gets after Weapon emerges. That image of a shattered Cloud at the Midgar train station is burned into my memory.

  • @shadowkitsu
    @shadowkitsu 6 месяцев назад

    I really want these games and the systems for it.....maybe next Christmas....

  • @flareinc7413
    @flareinc7413 6 месяцев назад

    Advent's Children is many things and even though it has its problem,I would never use the words "deeply flawed" :D It caused you to play FF7, right? Such a good movie. Otherwise a very good video ^^

  • @saracook2753
    @saracook2753 6 месяцев назад

    This is a great video, I know it’s been awhile since it’s upload but I would love to see more videos like this one

  • @sunlitriddle2294
    @sunlitriddle2294 6 месяцев назад

    You have single handedly healed my disappointment in Cloud's character in Advent Children. I felt the same way you did, that there was a... reset to his character arc. You said it perfectly, that we'd seen earnest, quirky Cloud. Who was this, but a reset to his "I'm just a failure" point? And that's it exactly, that in the quiet aftermath, those Bad Thoughts came back. I had a solid Depression period in my late 20s-early 30s (got diagnosed and everything) that comes back to haunt me even now on the eve of my 40s. I won't go into it, but suffice to say, it lends perspective to Cloud's state in Advent Children, especially in AC Complete. I have those quiet moments where the Bad Thoughts come up. I have *loud* moments where the Bad Thoughts come up. Now, this character decision makes sense, and I feel like a movie wasn't nearly enough space to explore. Anyway, thank you. Here's to Rebirth in 2024. Let's see where this train takes us.

    • @CautiousAmber
      @CautiousAmber 6 месяцев назад

      Thank you so much for this comment! I'll always have complicated feelings on Advent Children but I'm glad I could offer a different perspective on it. I'm hopeful that Remake/Rebirth/etc will find ways to show the various mental journeys that Cloud goes through, perhaps providing the additional space that Advent Children needed to connect all the pieces together.

  • @spellblade
    @spellblade 7 месяцев назад

    "Hours of waiting to watch AMVS of Cloud and Sephiroth fighting set to My Chemical Romance songs" I know you're talking about yourself, but this feels like a personal attack lol

  • @ldking5132
    @ldking5132 8 месяцев назад

    Beautiful video. Thank you for making this.

  • @Yukon_83
    @Yukon_83 8 месяцев назад

    Thanks for for the spoilers mate I’ve not got to that of the game yet still on disk two😅ps1 my second time playing But the first I didn’t make it for

  • @Yukon_83
    @Yukon_83 8 месяцев назад

    If he’s weak he’s been thru soo much in his short life losing all his family etc being worked on against his free will and losing his best friend I can keep going 😢 cloud is stronger then anyone could’ve ever known He’s only cocky because of trauma an ptsd mental illness is really real out here whether reality Are not please remember to treat it as such serious matters like so shouldn’t be swept under the rug 😢

  • @shin_a
    @shin_a 8 месяцев назад

    please make an analysis of the remake cloud. I love listening to you talk about this

  • @aidenmcnally6039
    @aidenmcnally6039 9 месяцев назад

    Just completed ff7 for the first time, as a person who struggles with mental health issues cloud has become more of a hero to me now than he ever was 20 something years ago. This video essay was beautifully constructed and I hope the you at your best shines through more than your worst. Thank you for your time and effort making this awesome video.

  • @SomethingScotty
    @SomethingScotty 9 месяцев назад

    Bummer you never made any additional videos on FF.

  • @thothmark
    @thothmark 9 месяцев назад

    Like Cloud this is my home and cant leave forever to return.

  • @thothmark
    @thothmark 9 месяцев назад

    interesting I played this when I was fourteen in 1997 I literally uncontrollably cried when Aerith died.

  • @gibbs615
    @gibbs615 10 месяцев назад

    You do know that Cloud's fractured mind and mental illnesses was all the result of what Hojo did to him for 5 yrs and then the trauma of Zack dying in front of him. That's when Tifa found him that was when Cloud started to act like someone he wasn't.

  • @papacitoloko1117
    @papacitoloko1117 10 месяцев назад

    Cloud is the original spc 😮

  • @joannetallons3452
    @joannetallons3452 10 месяцев назад

    He is so hot 🔥 😋

  • @aaronchef82
    @aaronchef82 10 месяцев назад

    I cried and cried. Thank you

  • @wigglesworm
    @wigglesworm 10 месяцев назад

    I was a bit sad bcz my "friends" didnt choose me for a group project hopefully this could help me😭😭

  • @annemarieroberts1449
    @annemarieroberts1449 11 месяцев назад

    He’s still a badass use the sword tho

  • @the5seasons947
    @the5seasons947 11 месяцев назад

    Advent children Cloud is the most relatable Cloud. Sad and traumatic. Never accepting the love of Tifa and never forgetting the death of Arieth

  • @jonconnor0729
    @jonconnor0729 Год назад

    I wish more authors write protagonist like Cloud because as a kid I identify with him the most. In the game he was cool and mature and detached but from time to time showed his childish side (him doing fistbump, playing arcade games, participating in chocobo races). He is like a child that was forced to grow up fast which I identify with the most. I had dreams and want to do what a child wants to do but my surroundings, and the people in it wanted me to grow into an adult faster. I had to shut away my emotions, and my dreams.

  • @shilohgrayson
    @shilohgrayson Год назад

    I never played the original, but I did play the demo for the remake and I've seen a playthrough of the remake as well and I really wanna play the game. I never knew Cloud suffered and I'm glad you showed me that he did. Seeing that makes his character so much more complex and I really like that.

  • @samocenar2116
    @samocenar2116 Год назад

    Pats Cloud's head: This little guy can hold so much trauma.

  • @jasontodd6380
    @jasontodd6380 Год назад

    You really like Dick, But I don't blame you he's cool but he Ain't me

  • @MadDogRyan
    @MadDogRyan Год назад

    I played the original FF VII with my cousin it’s my favorite video game story ever the remake story was okay but the original was perfect

  • @votebluenomatterwho2532
    @votebluenomatterwho2532 Год назад

    This.. this is why we need real heroes like Tony Soprano.

  • @tristanryan4334
    @tristanryan4334 Год назад

    I am cloud

  • @l7stop383
    @l7stop383 Год назад

    😢

  • @vincenzotomarchio2347
    @vincenzotomarchio2347 Год назад

    Out of every video game I've ever played i thought cloud was the most relatable. I only played the remake but after watching this is see a very similar parallel to my self and it was nice to see it quantified

  • @aravindvinayakan
    @aravindvinayakan Год назад

    He just like me fr

  • @jderekwastaken
    @jderekwastaken Год назад

    Cloud is my favorite character, and you've laid out the reasons why so clearly because it's a progression I also took in my life. I never underwent mako therapy, but I was an extremely sensitive, heart on my sleeve kid who dealt with anxiety, indecisiveness, and lots of failure. From my teens to maybe the age of 28 or 29, like Cloud, bravado and performative cockiness helped me cope through a lot. It wasn't until the last few years I've started to be real with myself, and try to stoke real self-esteem and healthy coping mechanisms that I can be honest with myself and others. I always wanted to be like the Zacks of the world, but some of us just are Clouds, doing our level best and embracing who we actually are. This was a great video, thank you!

  • @tristanryan7128
    @tristanryan7128 Год назад

    Acting weak, avoid so many unneeded fights. I fight because I cherish all life.